I am stuck between being well and being sick.
I am stuck between being sane and being crazy
I am stuck between being loved and being forgotten.

I feel like I am in the middle of anything possible of being in the middle of.

I want to be well...however my greatest fear is to gain weight...to get fat...to be alone.  I wonder...if I went to a phycoatrist...what would my diagnosis be...because we all know that I am not well.  Oddly enough, I have been thinking about this.  I believe I am ED-NOS with Anorexic tendences.  Which is caused by major depression, which is a resolt of my low selfesteem and self worth.  Weather it is true or not, I will never know.  It's just how I feel at this moment.  Some people tell me I should go see some one.  While others tell me that shows weakness.  I cannot show weakness.  I most stay strong.  Even if...deep inside, I am falling apart.  I stair into darkness...feeling greatly alone.  I feel as though I don't have anyone.